Its been almost 6 weeks since my life changed; and the more time I spend with Genesis the more I don't want to go back to work. But I will b/c I have to pay for everything. For the past almost 7 years I have been supporting Daniel so he can achieve his dream of his soccer league. I know that he's almost there with the league; but I can't help but feel resentment towards him. When will it be my turn to be taken care of? When will I get to be the woman in the relationship and have a man take care of me? Sometimes I think maybe it'll be better to just do this alone........just me and Genesis. If I have to pay for everything, why have another child(adult) that I have to take care of? I'm tired of the responsibility of paying for everything!!!!!!!
Originally I was going to stop being a Facility Administrator and drop to being just a charge nurse.....3 days a week/12 hour shifts....no after work responsibilities; just go to work and go home. Problem is: shift starts at 445am....there are no daycares open that early! Daniel won't quit his job at Vantage b/c he needs the money for his soccer league, UGH!! So now I have to shell out $1K/month for daycare...me, not him! If I decide to stay being an FA, then I'll wind up charging anyways b/c they don't have a TTS charge hired right now. I can't do that b/c hence no daycares are open and Daniel travels too much!! Whew
I really don't know what to do anymore.............
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