I'm heading into the home stretch of this pregnancy...3rd trimester...and at first I would read all these articles about emotional issues & hormones raging during pregnancy & I would laugh at it. Well unfortunately its now starting to hit me.
Daniel is traveling too much with his work-due to 2 people quitting-so he's been covering more regions than he should be. So I don't see my husband as often as I would like. Then he has his soccer league; which consumes the rest of his time. So I'm starting to resent him and his work (both surgery and soccer) It started out a feeling of loneliness and then escalated to feeling abandoned and unloved. Then anger hits.....I hate being an angry person...but I honestly don't know what more to do. His work takes him away so much that i'm starting to lose who he is anymore and that scares me with the baby coming. And I really don't want the baby to feel the way that I do.
I work too, but its mainly a 8-4(ish) job monday thru friday and sometimes some phone calls on saturdays (if some drama goes down and my employees need to get in touch with me) but I always make time in the evening and weekends for Daniel, but his priorities are different than mine.
It just gets really frustrating and I'm at a lost of what to do. Daniel says that he wants to reconnect and I do too; but I just have all this anger/sadness/resentment built up in me. I'd love to blame it on hormones (and maybe thats what it is) but I don't know what to do to get rid of it.
*sigh* I feel better after my vent....but not fabulous! :-)
2 comments:
Awe girl! I feel you! Well my situation is different, but I completely understand! God wouldn't put us through these things if He knew we couldn't handle them. Maybe He has Daniel doing all of this now, but once it gets closer to the baby getting here Daniel's schedule could possible be more flexible and he will be able to have more than enough time spend with the two of you. You never know. Just trust in Him and He will lead the way! :) ((BIG HUGS!))
thanks Ash!! I'm just nervous about his work & traveling...his job really treats him horribly and I'm afraid that they won't give him time off for the delivery and everything! I would just love it if he just quit..but i know he needs the money to finish up the land so they can start playing league there.
But I know that God wouldn't give me anything that I/we couldn't handle. Just one more hurdle.
Thanks for being there!!! MUAH ((((hugs))))
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